Thursday, September 29, 2011


Well, here it is, my new blog! If you're here it is because you managed to follow me over from my old blog. It was hard and sad to let that blog go, but all good books come to an end. It is time to start a new book in the series.

Many of you wanted to see pictures of the new haircut I got recently, so here you go!

Yep, I love it. I think this is the best length for my face. I also got it highlighted and I love that too. Want to know something cool about this picture? Baby Bean took it. That's right, my little photographer. I tried to take the picture myself, but it just didn't look right. So I handed the camera to Baby Bean, and she worked her magic. Mama looks awesome.

So on my old blog I said I was going to have to break my rule about not posting anything to do with infertility, and I am afraid I will have to break the rule. I had completely given up and didn't care about this cycle at all. My first follicle check of this cycle was right on par with the last 13 months. There really wasn't anything to see or say, other than that my lining was too thin. Shocker. I went back 5 days later, not expecting much of anything again, especially since I was in a lot of discomfort last month from the chlomid and underdeveloped follicles and I wasn't this month. To my surprise, and Dr. D's, I not only had many follicles on my left side, I had five right at the same size. 

Dr. D wanted me to cancel the cycle. He told me is afraid I will end up with triplets, and proceeded to caution me against it because they would be born early and all of the complications that comes with. He said it was only a 3-4% chance, but that he would feel better if we cancelled. He knew I was going to go forward without my saying anything. He then asked if I would consider selective reduction. No. Absolutely not. So he told me to go home and have a serious conversation with my husband, and to come back in in two days.

This morning I went back in and all five follies were ready to go. All of them were between 21 and 22mm. I even had three up and coming on the right at 18 and 19mm (for those who don't know, ovulation happens when follicles are between 21-23mm). Dr. D knew I was going forward, so to prevent the other three from maturing as well, he triggered me. (Again, for those not in the know, I was given an HCG shot in my butt to kick the eggs out ASAP.) 

He told me to be careful because right now my left ovary is bigger than my uterus, so there is a chance of a follicle rupture. He also said that I can get my hopes up for this cycle because everything looked perfect, the follicles, my lining, everything. I told him I wanted to, but 5 years of battling infertility tends to keep your feet on the ground. But I do have to say this is the most hope I have had in a long time. If I don't get pregnant off this cycle, I never will. That's all there is to it. 

Dr. D was amazed at how well I responded to only 100mg of chlomid. He told me on Tuesday that if this cycle didn't work, he was going to bump me back to 75mg, but that I might end up being mad at him for that because I might not respond. But when I asked him today if he would let me do 100 again next month, he said he didn't know, but that he might. Honestly though, if this doesn't work, we're going to do a hysteroscopy to make sure there is no scar tissue inhibiting implantation and pregnancy. (Again, for those not in the know, that is when they go into the uterus with a camera and have a look around.)

So much for not blogging about infertility or TTC on this blog huh? I just had to make an exception for this cycle, and now you all see why.

So we're off to the races! I haven't ovulated yet (as confirmed by OPKs and my monitor), but I definitely had my surge in addition to my HCG shot, so it is only a matter of hours. The hardest part is going to be not getting my hopes up over the next two weeks.

To everyone who followed me over, thanks. I will be getting my following list up as the week goes on. :)