Thursday, September 29, 2011

Welcome!

Well, here it is, my new blog! If you're here it is because you managed to follow me over from my old blog. It was hard and sad to let that blog go, but all good books come to an end. It is time to start a new book in the series.

Many of you wanted to see pictures of the new haircut I got recently, so here you go!

Yep, I love it. I think this is the best length for my face. I also got it highlighted and I love that too. Want to know something cool about this picture? Baby Bean took it. That's right, my little photographer. I tried to take the picture myself, but it just didn't look right. So I handed the camera to Baby Bean, and she worked her magic. Mama looks awesome.

So on my old blog I said I was going to have to break my rule about not posting anything to do with infertility, and I am afraid I will have to break the rule. I had completely given up and didn't care about this cycle at all. My first follicle check of this cycle was right on par with the last 13 months. There really wasn't anything to see or say, other than that my lining was too thin. Shocker. I went back 5 days later, not expecting much of anything again, especially since I was in a lot of discomfort last month from the chlomid and underdeveloped follicles and I wasn't this month. To my surprise, and Dr. D's, I not only had many follicles on my left side, I had five right at the same size. 

Dr. D wanted me to cancel the cycle. He told me is afraid I will end up with triplets, and proceeded to caution me against it because they would be born early and all of the complications that comes with. He said it was only a 3-4% chance, but that he would feel better if we cancelled. He knew I was going to go forward without my saying anything. He then asked if I would consider selective reduction. No. Absolutely not. So he told me to go home and have a serious conversation with my husband, and to come back in in two days.

This morning I went back in and all five follies were ready to go. All of them were between 21 and 22mm. I even had three up and coming on the right at 18 and 19mm (for those who don't know, ovulation happens when follicles are between 21-23mm). Dr. D knew I was going forward, so to prevent the other three from maturing as well, he triggered me. (Again, for those not in the know, I was given an HCG shot in my butt to kick the eggs out ASAP.) 

He told me to be careful because right now my left ovary is bigger than my uterus, so there is a chance of a follicle rupture. He also said that I can get my hopes up for this cycle because everything looked perfect, the follicles, my lining, everything. I told him I wanted to, but 5 years of battling infertility tends to keep your feet on the ground. But I do have to say this is the most hope I have had in a long time. If I don't get pregnant off this cycle, I never will. That's all there is to it. 

Dr. D was amazed at how well I responded to only 100mg of chlomid. He told me on Tuesday that if this cycle didn't work, he was going to bump me back to 75mg, but that I might end up being mad at him for that because I might not respond. But when I asked him today if he would let me do 100 again next month, he said he didn't know, but that he might. Honestly though, if this doesn't work, we're going to do a hysteroscopy to make sure there is no scar tissue inhibiting implantation and pregnancy. (Again, for those not in the know, that is when they go into the uterus with a camera and have a look around.)

So much for not blogging about infertility or TTC on this blog huh? I just had to make an exception for this cycle, and now you all see why.

So we're off to the races! I haven't ovulated yet (as confirmed by OPKs and my monitor), but I definitely had my surge in addition to my HCG shot, so it is only a matter of hours. The hardest part is going to be not getting my hopes up over the next two weeks.

To everyone who followed me over, thanks. I will be getting my following list up as the week goes on. :)

15 comments:

Heather said...

Well if more than one took, you'd certainly have your complete family 'baked' lol.

Marla said...

Well, this is exciting! Good luck with this cycle! And of course, with the new blog! :)

Alex said...

Beautiful new blog and haircut! I have so much hope for this cycle for you!!!

Leah said...

Hey you! Looking forward to following your new blog. :) I've missed hearing about you and your beautiful family. :)

Sue said...

So happy to have made my way to your new blog, good luck with whatever happens next.

twondra said...

Thinking of you so much sweetie!! Love the new blog! :) Love your hair too! It's beautiful!!

Kahla said...

Love the haircut, love the blog, love the update! My hopes are already up for you, I have zero self-control in that area! ;o)

Journey Girl said...

Love the new blog, love the new haircut, love the hope!! I will hope along with you (in Thailand!) in the next two weeks, whoo hoo!!

seussgirl said...

Welcome to your new space! Fingers and toes crossed for you! :)

Barb said...

Good job baby bean! I was like, "who is Elle?" hehe
Good luck!

Melissa N. said...

I found you and followed you over! So glad I'm here :) This cycle sounds very promising but I can understand your hesitation. Fingers crossed for you and good job Bean on the photo!!

Sarah said...

How funny is it that I was checking out your new blog at the exact same time you left a comment on my post! I couldn't get it to met me leave a comment here from my phone, so I closed out and figured I would come by to say hi later, then I saw your comment!

I know you are done with all of this, but I still have everything crossed for you this cycle. Even if it's negative, you will look back on this and know you did everything you could. That was how our 2nd failed FET was for me. It was heart breaking to come to the end, but I had such peace that if it was going to happen, it would have happened with that perfect cycle.

I hope this happens for you, but if not then a family of three is pretty awesome :) Love the new blog!

JEN said...

Five Follies sounds wonderful! Fingers crossed for you.

Potters said...

Sexy hair! Can I copy the hair style?

Wifey said...

Looooooooooooooooove the haircut - you look amazing!